belly update

i reached 34 inches for 3 days now..! and my colleague said "win, u dah takde pinggang dah"..
i am so happy!

weight update

my everyday weight is always 54kg or 55kg. (my bmi is always 19..considering the fact that i am 169cm in height)

during my early weeks, my weight drops to 53kg or lesser..

but now it has increased since my selera makan has come back!

3rd check up

my third check up sepatutnya pada 20hb. tapi i was admitted and i couldn't walk. so i asked for postponement. lagipun during my admission in hospital serdang, the doctors have repeatedly done ultrasound and unofficial pre-natal check up. so i have nothing to worry about pun.

so i was given a new date being 27th december. i went there with my mum. wan can't cuti, sbb dah banyak sgt cuti bulan 12 and da byk half day sbb isteri dia keluar masuk ward. first time dia tak dpt join! *sedih*.. kami sampai pukul 7.35am dan dapat nombor giliran 7005!.. awal pun jadi org nombor 5. tapi memandangkan kami dtg awal, pukul 9 dah boleh balik sbb da settle semua *yey*

tapi utk next check up (which will be on 11th January 2012), i asked for evening appointment because i really want wan to be there with me.

this time, i get to meet with the doctor. indian man, muda sgt..mcm 29 years old. he spoke to me in full english after knowing that i am working as a peguam persekutuan, bley tak? hehe.. he asked if i have any question. previously i do have tonnes of questions but i have already asked all of them to the doctors in hospital serdang. so when i came to see him, i don't have any more.! hehehe..apalah!

my hb is at the border. sepatutnya 11 and above. tp mine was 10.9.. dapat pen merah satu! aihhh.. the doctor said, it's oke, he assumed i am a bit dehydrated due to the medication prescribed to me during my admission the other day. but he asked me to drink a lot of water.

sepatutnya scan dkt klinik kerajaan dibuat masa dah masuk minggu ke 17 or 18 or 20..tp this time doctor tak perform scan pun sbb haritu masa kat hospital serdang, i've undergone that too many times already.

so far so good..baby..tak sabar nak jumpa kau!!

i have yet uploaded the ultrasound pictures..i will, soon..

admitted! but the baby's fine.

i was admitted twice in a week. 17-18dec and 20-21dec for a reason which might have connection with and impact on the baby. but thankfully, tak connected pun. the baby is sooo fine and healthy and big!

i was scheduled for a surgery on the 20th then they postpone to the next day because malam 20th tu ada emergency surgery so i was put on hold smpai esok pagi.
due to my pregnancy, the doctor was not so confident to let me go through with the surgery because the anaesthetic may have side effects on the baby...!

but i was lucky, berkat doa mak. the surgery was no need to be done after all.. nasib baik dorg postpone to the next day. mlm tu, something happen to my wound and afterwards the doctor said, no need surgery anymore..yeye!!

during my admission, since the doctors were so worried about my baby, i can't recall but the doctors must have at least did 4 times of ultrasound..my baby is bigger than his/her should-be size..and healthy and so active..he/she responded to the pressure of the scanner that was being pressed against me by the doctors. ahhh..what a wonderful feeling despite all the pain that i've to face all week...alhamdulillah. everythings fine now.

plane ride

last month, wan n i went for a trip to medan, indonesia. we met this family of three people who also went for the same trip, a big sister, a younger sister and the younger sister's daughter..they came from Seremban. The big sister was a nurse who had just retired a few days before the trip. She last worked at Klinik Kesihatan Seremban, next to mahkamah seremban where wan is working (currently).

the family was so comfortable hanging out with us (we wanted to just be alone, but they were where we were all the time!) after the younger sister knew that both of us are working in a legal field. why? her husband is also a lawyer/legal adviser somewhere in Selangor. So she felt that we can speak the same language. we were fine with them but i can't deny the fact that i was quite annoyed with the big sister, yup the nurse.. as soon as she learnt that i was pregnant, she started to nag..

"oh, have u consult your doctor before coming to this trip? taking into consideration that u are still at the early stage of pregnancy"

"you should not have boarded a plane, a plane ride would damage ur unborn child's hearing, he or she will have an impaired hearing!"

"you should not eat too much durian"

"you should not sit at the back seat of the bus especially on this bumpy road"

"you can't eat pineapple"

and she went on and on and on! argghhhh!!

everything that she nagged about bugged me but one thing worries me so much is the fact about plane ride..since i was in Indonesia, my blackberry can't access the internet.so i was so anxious to google everything about plane ride during early stage of pregnancy.." i was so worried that that spoilt my honeymoon mood. she (the nurse) was telling me that when i still have to take a plane ride home..did she expect me to take a boat to malaysia because of what she said (which is not certainly true??)??

so, as soon as i arrived home, as soon as i got the internet connection, i began googling..and what i found was rather comforting. it is safe to travel by air. There are some potential problems but these problems were more related to the length of time in the air, the route flown, and other flight phenomena.

if u are still at your first trimester, there are always risk of miscarriages..but usually that happened to those pregnancy that already faced certain problematic conditions,.if ur pregnancy is normal, the thing that u should concern about is the morning-sickness-kind-of-feeling that will be more excruciating when u r on a plane..

travelling by plane on your final few weeks expecially after your 36th weeks is not advisable and not permitted by many airplane companies for some risks that u can google on your own..

see? u can travel on a plane while u r pregnant! *fuhh* n my flight was only a 1 hour flight..!!! duh

and the thing she (the nurse) warned me about the "hearing impaired" is certainly not true!.. commercial flights nowadays have the technology that can equalize the pressure within the plane cabin and the pressure back on the land...so, no issue of hearing impaired on an unborn baby!! she scared me good..and it was unneccessary!!.. i hope i will never have to see her ever again!

bikin stress!

growing belly

i read that usually people with flat tummy (..hihihi..) will be the ones who will be the late bloomers a.k.a "yup, she's not showing yet"

my not-so-slim waist always measured 26 inches no matter if i'm gaining or losing weight..this morning i measured it again and now the current measurement is 31 inches!

all of my kain baju kurung with a zip is "unzippable" since last 2 months, not because they do not fit me anymore but because i was having the feeling of fullness that makes me feel they are too tight to wear.

but today, they literally do not fit me anymore. :)

i can't wait to watch my belly shows itself to the world but i was told that until it starts to rapidly grow, it will only grow much slowly that one who doesn't know that i'm pregnant, will not realise..

16 weeks and 3 days

i am four months pregnant yeyy!! approximately 5 months to go before my baby's birthday..!

i was told by many women around me that my fatigueness and sleepyness will go away as soon as i reached my 2nd trimester or 4th month.

so here i am on my forth month but still having all the symptoms, some becomes more excruciating..and few more symptoms just show themselves..

hmmm..can't wait for my next check up especially because finally i get to see not just nurse but the doctor herself!..i have a lot of questions doctor..:) c u soon.!

2nd check up + first ultrasound!!

i was on my 13th week + 3 days of pregnancy when i went for my 2nd check up..it was on 21 November 2011. Everything was smooth,..no problem, no complaint..nothing..
still having symptoms like fatigue and sleepyness almost all the time..!

I asked the nurse when will i first have my ultrasound because i can't wait to hear/see my baby's heartbeat. she told me she'll schedule ultrasound session during next checkup for me..*yey*

after check up, my curiousity rushed to the top so we didn't wait, we went straight to Klinik Hanita to have our first ultrasound..:))

when we did it for the first time, the doctor told us that there's the heartbeat *which wan and i failed to see :'(*..but so long as the doctor said it was there, i was so delightful.. i could see our baby's head, spine, his whole body and his hands moving.. Ya Allah.. there really is a tiny human being inside of my womb..alhamdulillah..

the doctor snapped an ultrasound photo and gave it to us..we went home with big smiles on our faces. we just saw our baby for the first time!!!!!

i miss list

the things i usually do but can't do now that i miss so much:

1. cooking

sometimes i couldn't stand the smell of someone's cooking but sometimes, when i could, i couldn't taste whatever that is cooked that i smell while it was being cooked.!

i couldn't smell my own cooking, i couldn't stand up for so long to cook.

2. eating

i get hungry all the time, but there are things that i could not eat at all. because of the smell, and the taste, and shape..i am left with bread. only bread!

3. shopping

my clothes are shrinking! but i couldn't shop for myself,.all the kitchen stuff that we need, i could shop expressly within 15minutes before feeling like fainting in public!

4. sweeping and moping the house

it's just to tiring to handle housechores! and my house is a mess.

and the list continues..

the smell of newly-washed laundry makes me sick!

i noticed that from the first day of my 9th-week of pregnancy, i can't stand so many types of odour,.especially the smell of the newly-washed laundry..they smell nice on one side and not on the other!..

the previous week, (my 8th week), i noticed that there was this one smell that bugged me a lot. so i searched for the source, i found it. it was the smell of the dried-mixed-previously-used-detergents in my washing machine. 3-4 types of different detergents. so i cleaned it up. but the next batch of laundry still had the same horrendous smell. oh please help me god.! this situation prolonged to the next week and has not yet stopped!

until today, the smell stays and i am running out of things to wear..every shirt, skirt, baju kurung smell like that..i can't stand it!!..(not only that, i can't no longer wear any of my pants, they all shrinked!! so few days from today, there's nothing left for me to wear)

so before that day comes, what is our plan? we are going to wash all of our clothes at wan's mum's house, hopefully they don't produce the same smell and i really hope this plan works..:)

p/s wan said the smell is not horrendous at all, it is just me.! :((((

my first pregnancy check up

as mentioned earlier in two of my blogposts, my appointment date for first check up is on 25 Oct 2011 at 9 am, Klinik Batu, Jalan Ipoh, KL..

we arrived exactly at 9 am and our number was 7022. I expected that we would be lingering at the clinic for about 3 hours..and i was right! we finished around 11.30am.

i finally have my own kad merah or buku merah which will contain all of my health records throughout my pregnancy..

so, what to expect on your first check up at a government clinic??:

1. the nurses will record ur height and weight
2. then, they'll check ur blood pressure
3. urine test
4. blood test (they took 10ml of my blood)
5. they checked my belly and have it measured
6. and answered every question that i ask.! (i had a lot! especially about foods)

i also have extra information about breastfeeding, specifically "what trait that u have that will make ur breastfeeding experience becomes difficult"
but i am shy *blush* to say it out loud here, so if anyone needs to know, u can ask me, alrite?

mummy milk

don't jump to conclusion just yet. mummy milk in this entry does not refer to breast milk (a bit pre mature to discuss about that, don't u think?) but i was referring to powder milk for future mommies.

two days ago, i bought this:

i've been thinking of buying it for a week now, so tadaa...i bought it at tesco. chocolate flavour lagi, 350gram... it costs RM22.50 (only..?? quite expensive for me because i used to buy dutch lady full cream milk that cost me less than half of that..hehe..but for mummy milk, that is kinda cheap,.)

but until today (2 days later) i haven't taste it yet because on saturday, right after i bought it, i didn't feel very well (read: if i drink any milk, i'll end up throwing it all out, so it's going to be a total waste of money) sunday pun. today i feel oke, so i will definitely force myself to drink it starting from today (lagipun, my kakak already marah me for not started drinking it earlier)..

wish me luck..! :)

week 8.

Week Eight: Starts to practice moving

You are 8 weeks pregnant. (six weeks from conception)
The embryo is measures about 18 mm (3/4 inch) in length.
Their arms and legs are growing and location of the elbows and toes are visible..
The feet and hand buds have appeared.
Starts to practice moving (not felt by mom till week 20)
The stomach is being made from part of the gut.
The face is beginning to take shape.
Your baby's mouth and nostrils are starting to develop.
Teeth begin to develop under the gums.
The eyes can now be seen as small hollows on each side of the head.

Baby

The arms and legs continue to develop - These limbs are stretching out more and more. Later on you will be feeling those feet and elbows up close and personal right in your bladder. The embryonic tail has almost disappeared.

The pituitary gland is also forming and the embryo is beginning to grow muscle fibers. The heart has divided into the right and left chambers and is beating about 150 beats a minute which is about twice the rate of an adult.

The baby's facial features are visible, including a mouth and tongue. The eyes have a retina and lens. The major muscle system is developed, and the baby starts to practice moving. The baby has its own blood type and the blood cells are produced by the liver now instead of the yolk sac.
MotherYour first prenatal visit is usually scheduled between week eight and week twelve. This visit is the longest and most in depth of all your scheduled visits, lasting about an hour. During your first prenatal visit, your caregiver will try to establish your general health and family's medical history. You will be asked a lot of questions, many of which may seem personal, try and answer them as best you can.

It is a good idea to bring any medical records you may have with you to your first prenatal visit. You will be asked if you have had previous pregnancies or miscarriages, and the date of your last menstrual period (LMP). The last menstrual period prior to pregnancy and used to calculate the estimated due date of the baby (EDD).

A physical exam may be performed during your first prenatal visit, also your height, weight and blood pressure will be recorded on your medical records. Depending on when you have your first prenatal visit, you may have some routine prenatal tests performed during your meeting.
Your caregiver may decide to schedule an NT ultrasound sometime between week 10 and week 14 and/or an ultrasound between week sixteen and week twenty ( Anomaly/Growth scan ).

(http://www.baby2see.com/development/week8.html)

pre check up

fact 1:

if u choose government clinics, u cannot choose which clinic you want to have ur check ups done, the clinic will choose u, based on ur current address.

fact 2:

people who lives in desa pinggiran putra, although our house view is PICC, Putrajaya, still the clinics regarded us as Kajang citizens. They will send u to Klinik Desa Sungai Merab.

fact 3:

when u first confirmed ur pregnancy at a "cikai" private clinic (that charged u RM35 anyway), they won't be giving u any written report or whatever, so when u want to do ur check ups at the government clinics, u need to do the UPT (urine pregnancy test) again for record purposes.

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All three facts happened to me. Since the clinic in putrajaya didn't choose me, i have to go back to mum's house in KL. i refused to go to Klinik Desa Sungai Merab because of the condition which i am sure i am not going to be comfortable with (such a spoil person, i know!)

so i called the two nearest government clinics in my mum's house's area. Klinik Jinjang and Klinik Batu. Klinik Batu choose me (finally!!) yeay!

so when i called them, they said that i need to come down to the clinic to make an appointment. when i arrived there, they asked me to do the UPT again because they need to keep my fresh record. so i did it.

while waiting for the test result, i called wan because i had this one fear. what if the result turned out negative. although i know that is highly unlikely since i've been having all the symptoms and sickness, but through my readings on the internet, i know that there is possibility!

*i read that some women don't even realized that they have miscarriaged. what they thought was their normal menstrual was in fact miscarriage!!!*

wan consoled me and said that that will not happen to me. and when the result is out,,, tadaaaaa..."positive!"

so then i meet with the doctor, a muslim woman, i like that..she "break the news" that i am pregnant, 7 weeks and 4 days.. but she knew that i already knew..hehe

since i was as excited as the first time i confirmed my pregnancy, i posted the picture of second time "positive" in facebook..i was surprised to see that some of my friends just learnt about my pregnancy yesterday..i am glad i shared the picture..:) (thank u blackberry :))

later, i got my appointment date being 25 October and lucky me that on my first check up, wan is going to be with me, insyaallah! :)

The Stories About Clinics

Clinic 1.

Went to Hanita Clinic on 15th September 2011, 400meters from home in desa pinggiran putra, putrajaya. I met with a male doctor, young. about 28 years old.. he confirmed my pregnancy. i had a lot of questions, one of which he answered "saya tak tahulah sebenarnya".

i got confused. u r a doctor. how can u say that? "maybe" is better than giving me a plain "i don't know" come on!

but since that was the first day that i knew i was pregnant, my mood was great and i didn't scold him. :)

Clinic 2.

I feel very sick every evening..daily. i went to Az-Zahrah Hospital in Bandar Baru Bangi. the service is slow but the doctors are excellent. I was meeting a male doctor, when i started to tell him about my concern, when he realised that my problem was so woman-ish, he sent me to a female doctor..i liked that!

the female doctor however gave me bad examples prior to letting me know my actual condition..she got me scared. but she was oke too.

Clinic 3.

I went to Klinik Kesihatan Batu, Jalan Ipoh KL just now. Yesterday when i called, they said that i need to go there and make an appointment for check up. so today, i went there and they told me that i need to do the UPT again for record purposes..i did it and then i was assigned to a female muslim doctor..i like..like..like..like! hehe she said i am 7 weeks and 4 days today.. my appointment for first pregnancy check up is going to be in 25 Oct 2011. Klinik Kerajaan has improved so much..syukur.! I have a lot to share about my visit to the clinic today..check out next entry!

sick mode

all the sickly stuffs started to come on my 6th weeks of pregnancy. at that point of time, my thought was, most people (org dulu-dulu lah) only find out about their pregnancy after 2 months of conceiving.. how can that be? can't you feel the different? doesn't your body give you early signs? weird..but i learned that all pregnancies are unique in itself even on the same person on different pregnancies. so, maybe they didn't experience early signs.

my week 6 (30 sept-6 Oct) :

i often feel so weak. seriously weak. threwing up so often. light headed. sleepy. but i only experience all this either early in the morning (after azan subuh before going to work) and the most after 6pm everyday. most of the time it prolonged until 3-4 hours.

my week 7 (7 Oct-13 Oct) :

throwing up more often,. light headed during office hours..fall flat every evening starting from 6 pm onwards (most of the time, i fell asleep at 8pm until the next morning)..

and an additional sickness = "DIZZY"...the highest level of dizziness..i don't have migraine but i am sure that it is worse than migraine!! imagine, crazy degree of dizziness + crazy degree of weakness, light headed..every night.!

the worst of all is that, i don't feel like eating anything because everytime i eat, i throw up everything that i just ate plus with yesterday's left over not-yet-digested-food.. i don't eat, i throw up some more..what is left? only a shrinked stomach..so instead of gaining weight like i thought would happen, i maybe loss some kgs. But it was just my guess, we haven't own any weight scale yet. :)

my big sister said, this is the beauty of pregnancy. i am not (yet) agreeable to that statement, maybe soon i will. because she's a mother, she knows better.

additional feelings:

i watched tv the other night about this girl who had given birth to a child and then she threw the new born downstairs from her 4th floor apartment. of course the new born died and already in heaven. she's not married (OF COURSE)..this led me into thinking how troublesome for a person to went through pregnancy when such pregnancy is unwanted. she must have went through all hardships too. alone and sinful. That is so agonizing. That is why our religion warned us not have sex before marriage. Now she has to face two huge sins, adultery and killing of another human being.! Ya Allah..!

My doa is for every muslim woman to not do the same. amin.!

negative thoughts

the thoughts, they weren't mine.

#1

i went to see a doctor at Az-Zahrah, Bangi the other day because i have few concerns being, firstly i have a constant stomach cramps (same like when u r about to have ur menstrual period) i was worried why do i have that when i won't be having menstrual period for nine months..? secondly i throw up a lot but i can't eat to replace whatever food that should be digested in my stomach, i was expecting ubat tahan muntah or something.

when i started to talk about my first concern (i haven't finish complaining), to my surprise, the doctor jumped to the part where she told me this "kalau bermasalah, itu bermaksud belum rezeki kita, kalau tuhan nak ambil balik, redha kan sahaja sebab walaupun kita boleh tahan, tapi dulu ada kes bila kita thn rupanya kepala baby tak form dgn sempurna, baby tu cacat, patut dah kita biar gugur, tapi bila thn mcm tu lah.macam tulah yg akan jadi kalau kita tak redha dengan ketentuan tuhan"

my reaction was "aik??" "what the????" dear doctor, i haven't event get all my concerns out yet and u are already preparing me for bad news? is that how u were taught back in med school? as if one patient is trying to tell u that he experiences stomach ache, would u tell him "kena lah redha, kalau dah sampai masa tuhan nak tarik nyawa" when he turned out to have ONLY indigestion problem???? isn't it too extreme?

oke, my positive-self replied to the doctor "saya faham apa maksud doktor, tapi saya hanya rasa stomach cramp itu kadang2 je. bukannya ada tumpah darah ke apa"..

and then she replied "itu biasa di waktu awal pregnancy, u have nothing to worry about".. i answered her "ha, this makes sense.."..she smiled.

#2

one of my staff at the office had experienced difficulties in getting a child for about 3 years and few miscarriages before she finally succeeded to get pregnant. now she has a son and a daughter. the news of me getting pregnant spread around and she came to my office and we had almost an hour conversation.

she started with "cik awin kena lah ready, bila tiba2 tumpah darah ke apa".."kadang-kadang mmg susah nak jadi"..and there are a lot of details that i think i should just keep to myself. but all her words seemed like she is telling me that all that will eventually happen to me.

i know she meant well,. just to share her experience or something, but the way she put it to me as if she was sure that i would experience that too. that's not fair, she should have doa for me.! at my condition right now, i can easily get irritated and worried..that is not helping dear..nope.

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maybe they meant well, but the way they put it is so not right. don't stressed out pregnant ladies people. :)

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but other than those two, everybody else was happy for me and only wish for the best. alhamdulillah.

Can i conceive?

In previous entry i wrote that our initial plan was to wait until 1 year (after our wedding) before we start to think about getting pregnant, remember?

but, 6 months later, i have a heart beating inside my womb already.

so what was the factor that made us change our mind from waiting to not to wait?

obviously it was me.! (i was pushy) :) haha.. as a normal lady, i always have these thought "can i get pregnant?" "what if i can't?" "infertility scares the hell out of me"..i know the fact that if i have infertility problems, pregnancy won't happen, doesn't matter if we waited or not, i won't (except with Allah's approval of course)..

plus with the surrounding facts that some of my blood relatives had problems in getting pregnant, it worsen my thoughts and it kinda haunt me.

besides that, we thought our financial were oke (though it may not be enough, but wait? who in this world has ever have enough money anyway??), our emotional were oke. so, why wait? we are left with no reason to wait, except, "suka hati lah nak tunggu lagi ke tak" :)

peer pressure has never bothered me, alhamdulillah. some people do compete with their peers..for all i care, u can compete, if u win, they won't help u feed ur child, they won't be the ones who are going to go through sleepless night..boo hoo.!

so, we made our decision because we thought we are ready for it. insyaallah, we are. :)

p/s and yes, the answer that i was looking for is "yes, i can conceive."

17-19 September 2011

By these dates, most people have already learnt the news. :)

I didn't feel many of the "sickly" symptoms (yet).. except the killer symptom that i was having, soreness..(u know what sore the most right? (if u don't google it please) yupp, those!) can't even touch them, no slight movement was allowed!...nooooo!! it continued until today..:(

other symptoms? none.! i was glad..until the 19th.

i took an emergency leave. i can't get up of bed. like seriously can't..i was super duper exhausted like nobody's business. i was sleepy at the highest level of sleepiness and all of my body was aching.

suddenly i remembered my thoughts when i was not yet married, few of my friends who were pregnant back then, complaint that they were weak, everywhere (on the body) was hurtful..bla..bla..bla..my thoughts were, if it was really bad, people won't dare to get pregnant so often. so i was sure that it was not that bad that most people were only spoilt, and wanted attention that's all.

now that i have experienced it myself, let me tell u, that they weren't kidding. seriously! please hear me people, everybody including all of the virgins!...those pregnant ladies who always complaint this and that, they weren't kidding! help them, support them, listen to them and believe them PLEASEEEEE!!

16 September 2011

I learnt that i was pregnant on the Thursday, 15th, on the 16th (friday-public holiday-malaysia day) i held a makan-makan (it was hari raya still) at my rented house due to few requests from close friends. Since the event was planned wayyyy before the news of pregnancy was known to us, we had to proceed anyway. Wan has been very dear to me. He was the no. 1 helper that was always available when i needed favours.

After the event was over, (the last guests left at approximately 9.30pm) i was already FLAT. but my beautiful-little-tiny-cutie-pie nephew was warded at az-zahrah bangi due to his unhealed throat. he is only 2! so i had to manned-up and we went to visit him. he was oke, alhamdulillah and was asleep.

at 11pm we were already in bed and we were so thankful that the day after was only Saturday!

15 September 2011

It was 13 September 2011:

If my cycle stayed 26days, then aunty P should be coming on the 13th.

If my cycle turned itself back to 28days, then aunty P should be coming on the 15th.

Despite all the weird feelings that i've been experiencing for the pass 2-3days, i waited until the 15th before i decided to buy a home pregnancy test. Wan agreed. I was too excited already but Wan kept on reminding me to be cool, because 50% chance was still "not pregnant". He didn't want me to feel so down and sad. He was right. I should control the uncertain excitement.

Came 15 September 2011:

i was suppose to go and buy the test stick with Wan, but i couldn't wait. So i bought one myself, the cheapest there was at Guardian Presint 8, Putrajaya. There should be the RM9.90 but it wasn't available. So i bought the next cheapest, RM12 (if i'm not mistaken) I bought the cheapest one because i didn't want to feel wasted if it turned out to be negative. Cheapskate..i know :)

so there i was waiting at home. 45 minutes (until Wan reached home) felt like 45 weeks! I wanted to do it with him around. But truthfully, i failed to wait.

I did it and within seconds i got the result instantly! i screamed and twirl and smile. Then i called Wan, god knows how many times asking him to drive as fast as he could to me.

Then finally he reached home. We had dinner, and relax for few minutes then i break the news.

the conversation went like this:

win: wan, win da beli pregnancy test tu

wan: hmm..mmm..

win: wan dah tau?

wan: haah.

win: how? (went on checking things in the bedroom and found guardian plastic bag) oohh, u saw this plastic bag, eh?

wan: yup.

win: oke.

wan: so?

(i gave him the test)

wan: (saw the two lines) maksudnya apa?

(i gave him a blank face and shake my head, then handed him the instruction of the test, where they had pictures of what the two lines mean)

wan: ha? haaaaaaaaaaa

his reaction was surprised + happy and all other details, i shall keep it to myself. :)

we went to the clinic and the result was confirmed by a doctor.

and then we called my mum and dad and told my sisters. The next day, we went to wan's house and break the news to wan's family. and then baru called my close friends, and lastly facebook.! :)

signs

a few days before i expected aunty P to come, i got a feeling that something weird was happening to my body. all of the menstrual symptoms that i usually have every month had shown itself, so in my mind i was almost sure that aunty P was going to come.

but later i noticed that "something" seemed swollen and too sensitive when touched (u know what i am talking about, right?) and my waist measurement has increased itself by 3 inches. imagine that. from 26 to 29.

i felt weak and a bit tired almost all the time especially early in the morning when i woke up. I complaint that to Wan, but he said maybe it was aunty P's coming.
my feeling was.."i maybe pregnant!"

so i started googling all pregnancy early signs and symptoms especially those that show itself before a missed period. to my surprise, i had few of the symptoms already.!!
(but i found so many different symptoms listed in so many websites, among the famous ones, i considered reliable.)

i had (among others):
1. Food cravings
2. Darkening of areolas
3. Implantation bleeding/spotting or cramping
4. Fatigue
5. Tender, swollen breasts

the third sign happened on the 12th, at first i really believed that it was aunty P. but now i know it was not.

diligent blood.

my cycle has been a diligent one. always 28 days..never more, never less, except during my university days especially during exam, aunty P came as she pleased. (girls, u know who aunty P is, right?)

but after marriage, my so called diligent cycle shortened itself, from 28 to 26 and later come back into being 28..

in this beautiful month of september, when it's supposed to come on the 13th, "she" came on the 12th!.. i was fasting on that day, it was almost maghrib when "she" arrived. so i considered my puasa as an unfinished one. :(

i got frustrated not only because my unfinished puasa, but because of my hope of conceiving has just being squashed!...

until i found out that "she" was not the "aunt P" who i thought has arrived.!

my story.

i was solemnized to my most beloved husband, Wan, on the 26th of March 2011. So it has been exactly 5 months, 3 weeks and 3 days (not that i counted the details myself, it is with the help of daisypath ticker, of course :)...)

our initial plan was to have the first year of marriage to ourselves and only after that will we be thinking of expanding our little family. ONE YEAR, supposedly.

but, later in the final week of august, we started to talk about conceiving and having baby..but we didn't really put our whole mind into it,..but it seems like Allah heard us, on the 15th of September 2011, the doctor confirmed that we are indeed 4 weeks pregnant. yey! :)

i went on sharing the good news with my family and a few close friends and later i announced it at facebook.

ALHAMDULILLAH, that's all i can say. until today, i still haven't fully digested the fact that i am actually pregnant.

i am glad, we didn't wait until one year has lapsed before trying to conceive because the feeling that i am experiencing now feels like a piece of heaven. :))))))

pilot.

hi, i am Win, 25, married and expecting. As i go through my moment of pre-motherhood, i'm writing this blog so to serve a purpose, that is to be a diary, a place where i can share with everybody the beautiful process that i am going through..

As a continuation to my wedding blog "I think it's time", i named this one "I think it's time Part 2".

have fun reading, feel free to leave comments.