Placenta Praevia - bahasa layman.

Placenta Praevia ni adalah satu keadaan di mana uri terletak di sebelah bawah, menghampiri jalan keluar baby atau menutupi keseluruhan jalan keluar baby. ada 4 types. lateral, marginal, partial, central. partial n central tu jenis yang agak teruk berbanding lateral n marginal. boleh google. ada gambar. (i'm too sad to even paste a picture here)

Risiko? vaginal bleeding yang sedikit atau teruk yang boleh menyebabkan mommy tu kena admit dekat hospital untuk observation. most cases in malaysia yang i read about, lama mereka kena tahan di hospital.. bagi kes yang teruk, mommy boleh kena c-sect there and then (kalau teruk sangat) untuk keluarkan baby as soon as possible walaupun belum cukup bulan. ;(

Usually kalau uri terletak di bawah pada 20-24 weeks, uri tu boleh naik atas balik. tapi after 28 weeks selalunya uri tak mo naik balik. tapi there is always possibility, insyaallah. but worse come to worse, kalau uri tak mau naik, mommy kena undergo c-sect. tak boleh la normal sbb akan tumpah darah yg banyak.

boleh baca kat sini lagi:
http://berita-harian-online.com/placenta-praevia-boleh-ragut-nyawa/

admitted! but the baby's fine.

i was admitted twice in a week. 17-18dec and 20-21dec for a reason which might have connection with and impact on the baby. but thankfully, tak connected pun. the baby is sooo fine and healthy and big!

i was scheduled for a surgery on the 20th then they postpone to the next day because malam 20th tu ada emergency surgery so i was put on hold smpai esok pagi.
due to my pregnancy, the doctor was not so confident to let me go through with the surgery because the anaesthetic may have side effects on the baby...!

but i was lucky, berkat doa mak. the surgery was no need to be done after all.. nasib baik dorg postpone to the next day. mlm tu, something happen to my wound and afterwards the doctor said, no need surgery anymore..yeye!!

during my admission, since the doctors were so worried about my baby, i can't recall but the doctors must have at least did 4 times of ultrasound..my baby is bigger than his/her should-be size..and healthy and so active..he/she responded to the pressure of the scanner that was being pressed against me by the doctors. ahhh..what a wonderful feeling despite all the pain that i've to face all week...alhamdulillah. everythings fine now.

i miss list

the things i usually do but can't do now that i miss so much:

1. cooking

sometimes i couldn't stand the smell of someone's cooking but sometimes, when i could, i couldn't taste whatever that is cooked that i smell while it was being cooked.!

i couldn't smell my own cooking, i couldn't stand up for so long to cook.

2. eating

i get hungry all the time, but there are things that i could not eat at all. because of the smell, and the taste, and shape..i am left with bread. only bread!

3. shopping

my clothes are shrinking! but i couldn't shop for myself,.all the kitchen stuff that we need, i could shop expressly within 15minutes before feeling like fainting in public!

4. sweeping and moping the house

it's just to tiring to handle housechores! and my house is a mess.

and the list continues..

negative thoughts

the thoughts, they weren't mine.

#1

i went to see a doctor at Az-Zahrah, Bangi the other day because i have few concerns being, firstly i have a constant stomach cramps (same like when u r about to have ur menstrual period) i was worried why do i have that when i won't be having menstrual period for nine months..? secondly i throw up a lot but i can't eat to replace whatever food that should be digested in my stomach, i was expecting ubat tahan muntah or something.

when i started to talk about my first concern (i haven't finish complaining), to my surprise, the doctor jumped to the part where she told me this "kalau bermasalah, itu bermaksud belum rezeki kita, kalau tuhan nak ambil balik, redha kan sahaja sebab walaupun kita boleh tahan, tapi dulu ada kes bila kita thn rupanya kepala baby tak form dgn sempurna, baby tu cacat, patut dah kita biar gugur, tapi bila thn mcm tu lah.macam tulah yg akan jadi kalau kita tak redha dengan ketentuan tuhan"

my reaction was "aik??" "what the????" dear doctor, i haven't event get all my concerns out yet and u are already preparing me for bad news? is that how u were taught back in med school? as if one patient is trying to tell u that he experiences stomach ache, would u tell him "kena lah redha, kalau dah sampai masa tuhan nak tarik nyawa" when he turned out to have ONLY indigestion problem???? isn't it too extreme?

oke, my positive-self replied to the doctor "saya faham apa maksud doktor, tapi saya hanya rasa stomach cramp itu kadang2 je. bukannya ada tumpah darah ke apa"..

and then she replied "itu biasa di waktu awal pregnancy, u have nothing to worry about".. i answered her "ha, this makes sense.."..she smiled.

#2

one of my staff at the office had experienced difficulties in getting a child for about 3 years and few miscarriages before she finally succeeded to get pregnant. now she has a son and a daughter. the news of me getting pregnant spread around and she came to my office and we had almost an hour conversation.

she started with "cik awin kena lah ready, bila tiba2 tumpah darah ke apa".."kadang-kadang mmg susah nak jadi"..and there are a lot of details that i think i should just keep to myself. but all her words seemed like she is telling me that all that will eventually happen to me.

i know she meant well,. just to share her experience or something, but the way she put it to me as if she was sure that i would experience that too. that's not fair, she should have doa for me.! at my condition right now, i can easily get irritated and worried..that is not helping dear..nope.

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maybe they meant well, but the way they put it is so not right. don't stressed out pregnant ladies people. :)

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but other than those two, everybody else was happy for me and only wish for the best. alhamdulillah.

Can i conceive?

In previous entry i wrote that our initial plan was to wait until 1 year (after our wedding) before we start to think about getting pregnant, remember?

but, 6 months later, i have a heart beating inside my womb already.

so what was the factor that made us change our mind from waiting to not to wait?

obviously it was me.! (i was pushy) :) haha.. as a normal lady, i always have these thought "can i get pregnant?" "what if i can't?" "infertility scares the hell out of me"..i know the fact that if i have infertility problems, pregnancy won't happen, doesn't matter if we waited or not, i won't (except with Allah's approval of course)..

plus with the surrounding facts that some of my blood relatives had problems in getting pregnant, it worsen my thoughts and it kinda haunt me.

besides that, we thought our financial were oke (though it may not be enough, but wait? who in this world has ever have enough money anyway??), our emotional were oke. so, why wait? we are left with no reason to wait, except, "suka hati lah nak tunggu lagi ke tak" :)

peer pressure has never bothered me, alhamdulillah. some people do compete with their peers..for all i care, u can compete, if u win, they won't help u feed ur child, they won't be the ones who are going to go through sleepless night..boo hoo.!

so, we made our decision because we thought we are ready for it. insyaallah, we are. :)

p/s and yes, the answer that i was looking for is "yes, i can conceive."

16 September 2011

I learnt that i was pregnant on the Thursday, 15th, on the 16th (friday-public holiday-malaysia day) i held a makan-makan (it was hari raya still) at my rented house due to few requests from close friends. Since the event was planned wayyyy before the news of pregnancy was known to us, we had to proceed anyway. Wan has been very dear to me. He was the no. 1 helper that was always available when i needed favours.

After the event was over, (the last guests left at approximately 9.30pm) i was already FLAT. but my beautiful-little-tiny-cutie-pie nephew was warded at az-zahrah bangi due to his unhealed throat. he is only 2! so i had to manned-up and we went to visit him. he was oke, alhamdulillah and was asleep.

at 11pm we were already in bed and we were so thankful that the day after was only Saturday!

my story.

i was solemnized to my most beloved husband, Wan, on the 26th of March 2011. So it has been exactly 5 months, 3 weeks and 3 days (not that i counted the details myself, it is with the help of daisypath ticker, of course :)...)

our initial plan was to have the first year of marriage to ourselves and only after that will we be thinking of expanding our little family. ONE YEAR, supposedly.

but, later in the final week of august, we started to talk about conceiving and having baby..but we didn't really put our whole mind into it,..but it seems like Allah heard us, on the 15th of September 2011, the doctor confirmed that we are indeed 4 weeks pregnant. yey! :)

i went on sharing the good news with my family and a few close friends and later i announced it at facebook.

ALHAMDULILLAH, that's all i can say. until today, i still haven't fully digested the fact that i am actually pregnant.

i am glad, we didn't wait until one year has lapsed before trying to conceive because the feeling that i am experiencing now feels like a piece of heaven. :))))))

pilot.

hi, i am Win, 25, married and expecting. As i go through my moment of pre-motherhood, i'm writing this blog so to serve a purpose, that is to be a diary, a place where i can share with everybody the beautiful process that i am going through..

As a continuation to my wedding blog "I think it's time", i named this one "I think it's time Part 2".

have fun reading, feel free to leave comments.