In previous entry i wrote that our initial plan was to wait until 1 year (after our wedding) before we start to think about getting pregnant, remember?
but, 6 months later, i have a heart beating inside my womb already.
so what was the factor that made us change our mind from waiting to not to wait?
obviously it was me.! (i was pushy) :) haha.. as a normal lady, i always have these thought "can i get pregnant?" "what if i can't?" "infertility scares the hell out of me"..i know the fact that if i have infertility problems, pregnancy won't happen, doesn't matter if we waited or not, i won't (except with Allah's approval of course)..
plus with the surrounding facts that some of my blood relatives had problems in getting pregnant, it worsen my thoughts and it kinda haunt me.
besides that, we thought our financial were oke (though it may not be enough, but wait? who in this world has ever have enough money anyway??), our emotional were oke. so, why wait? we are left with no reason to wait, except, "suka hati lah nak tunggu lagi ke tak" :)
peer pressure has never bothered me, alhamdulillah. some people do compete with their peers..for all i care, u can compete, if u win, they won't help u feed ur child, they won't be the ones who are going to go through sleepless night..boo hoo.!
so, we made our decision because we thought we are ready for it. insyaallah, we are. :)
p/s and yes, the answer that i was looking for is "yes, i can conceive."
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