the smell of newly-washed laundry makes me sick!

i noticed that from the first day of my 9th-week of pregnancy, i can't stand so many types of odour,.especially the smell of the newly-washed laundry..they smell nice on one side and not on the other!..

the previous week, (my 8th week), i noticed that there was this one smell that bugged me a lot. so i searched for the source, i found it. it was the smell of the dried-mixed-previously-used-detergents in my washing machine. 3-4 types of different detergents. so i cleaned it up. but the next batch of laundry still had the same horrendous smell. oh please help me god.! this situation prolonged to the next week and has not yet stopped!

until today, the smell stays and i am running out of things to wear..every shirt, skirt, baju kurung smell like that..i can't stand it!!..(not only that, i can't no longer wear any of my pants, they all shrinked!! so few days from today, there's nothing left for me to wear)

so before that day comes, what is our plan? we are going to wash all of our clothes at wan's mum's house, hopefully they don't produce the same smell and i really hope this plan works..:)

p/s wan said the smell is not horrendous at all, it is just me.! :((((

my first pregnancy check up

as mentioned earlier in two of my blogposts, my appointment date for first check up is on 25 Oct 2011 at 9 am, Klinik Batu, Jalan Ipoh, KL..

we arrived exactly at 9 am and our number was 7022. I expected that we would be lingering at the clinic for about 3 hours..and i was right! we finished around 11.30am.

i finally have my own kad merah or buku merah which will contain all of my health records throughout my pregnancy..

so, what to expect on your first check up at a government clinic??:

1. the nurses will record ur height and weight
2. then, they'll check ur blood pressure
3. urine test
4. blood test (they took 10ml of my blood)
5. they checked my belly and have it measured
6. and answered every question that i ask.! (i had a lot! especially about foods)

i also have extra information about breastfeeding, specifically "what trait that u have that will make ur breastfeeding experience becomes difficult"
but i am shy *blush* to say it out loud here, so if anyone needs to know, u can ask me, alrite?

mummy milk

don't jump to conclusion just yet. mummy milk in this entry does not refer to breast milk (a bit pre mature to discuss about that, don't u think?) but i was referring to powder milk for future mommies.

two days ago, i bought this:

i've been thinking of buying it for a week now, so tadaa...i bought it at tesco. chocolate flavour lagi, 350gram... it costs RM22.50 (only..?? quite expensive for me because i used to buy dutch lady full cream milk that cost me less than half of that..hehe..but for mummy milk, that is kinda cheap,.)

but until today (2 days later) i haven't taste it yet because on saturday, right after i bought it, i didn't feel very well (read: if i drink any milk, i'll end up throwing it all out, so it's going to be a total waste of money) sunday pun. today i feel oke, so i will definitely force myself to drink it starting from today (lagipun, my kakak already marah me for not started drinking it earlier)..

wish me luck..! :)

week 8.

Week Eight: Starts to practice moving

You are 8 weeks pregnant. (six weeks from conception)
The embryo is measures about 18 mm (3/4 inch) in length.
Their arms and legs are growing and location of the elbows and toes are visible..
The feet and hand buds have appeared.
Starts to practice moving (not felt by mom till week 20)
The stomach is being made from part of the gut.
The face is beginning to take shape.
Your baby's mouth and nostrils are starting to develop.
Teeth begin to develop under the gums.
The eyes can now be seen as small hollows on each side of the head.

Baby

The arms and legs continue to develop - These limbs are stretching out more and more. Later on you will be feeling those feet and elbows up close and personal right in your bladder. The embryonic tail has almost disappeared.

The pituitary gland is also forming and the embryo is beginning to grow muscle fibers. The heart has divided into the right and left chambers and is beating about 150 beats a minute which is about twice the rate of an adult.

The baby's facial features are visible, including a mouth and tongue. The eyes have a retina and lens. The major muscle system is developed, and the baby starts to practice moving. The baby has its own blood type and the blood cells are produced by the liver now instead of the yolk sac.
MotherYour first prenatal visit is usually scheduled between week eight and week twelve. This visit is the longest and most in depth of all your scheduled visits, lasting about an hour. During your first prenatal visit, your caregiver will try to establish your general health and family's medical history. You will be asked a lot of questions, many of which may seem personal, try and answer them as best you can.

It is a good idea to bring any medical records you may have with you to your first prenatal visit. You will be asked if you have had previous pregnancies or miscarriages, and the date of your last menstrual period (LMP). The last menstrual period prior to pregnancy and used to calculate the estimated due date of the baby (EDD).

A physical exam may be performed during your first prenatal visit, also your height, weight and blood pressure will be recorded on your medical records. Depending on when you have your first prenatal visit, you may have some routine prenatal tests performed during your meeting.
Your caregiver may decide to schedule an NT ultrasound sometime between week 10 and week 14 and/or an ultrasound between week sixteen and week twenty ( Anomaly/Growth scan ).

(http://www.baby2see.com/development/week8.html)

pre check up

fact 1:

if u choose government clinics, u cannot choose which clinic you want to have ur check ups done, the clinic will choose u, based on ur current address.

fact 2:

people who lives in desa pinggiran putra, although our house view is PICC, Putrajaya, still the clinics regarded us as Kajang citizens. They will send u to Klinik Desa Sungai Merab.

fact 3:

when u first confirmed ur pregnancy at a "cikai" private clinic (that charged u RM35 anyway), they won't be giving u any written report or whatever, so when u want to do ur check ups at the government clinics, u need to do the UPT (urine pregnancy test) again for record purposes.

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All three facts happened to me. Since the clinic in putrajaya didn't choose me, i have to go back to mum's house in KL. i refused to go to Klinik Desa Sungai Merab because of the condition which i am sure i am not going to be comfortable with (such a spoil person, i know!)

so i called the two nearest government clinics in my mum's house's area. Klinik Jinjang and Klinik Batu. Klinik Batu choose me (finally!!) yeay!

so when i called them, they said that i need to come down to the clinic to make an appointment. when i arrived there, they asked me to do the UPT again because they need to keep my fresh record. so i did it.

while waiting for the test result, i called wan because i had this one fear. what if the result turned out negative. although i know that is highly unlikely since i've been having all the symptoms and sickness, but through my readings on the internet, i know that there is possibility!

*i read that some women don't even realized that they have miscarriaged. what they thought was their normal menstrual was in fact miscarriage!!!*

wan consoled me and said that that will not happen to me. and when the result is out,,, tadaaaaa..."positive!"

so then i meet with the doctor, a muslim woman, i like that..she "break the news" that i am pregnant, 7 weeks and 4 days.. but she knew that i already knew..hehe

since i was as excited as the first time i confirmed my pregnancy, i posted the picture of second time "positive" in facebook..i was surprised to see that some of my friends just learnt about my pregnancy yesterday..i am glad i shared the picture..:) (thank u blackberry :))

later, i got my appointment date being 25 October and lucky me that on my first check up, wan is going to be with me, insyaallah! :)

The Stories About Clinics

Clinic 1.

Went to Hanita Clinic on 15th September 2011, 400meters from home in desa pinggiran putra, putrajaya. I met with a male doctor, young. about 28 years old.. he confirmed my pregnancy. i had a lot of questions, one of which he answered "saya tak tahulah sebenarnya".

i got confused. u r a doctor. how can u say that? "maybe" is better than giving me a plain "i don't know" come on!

but since that was the first day that i knew i was pregnant, my mood was great and i didn't scold him. :)

Clinic 2.

I feel very sick every evening..daily. i went to Az-Zahrah Hospital in Bandar Baru Bangi. the service is slow but the doctors are excellent. I was meeting a male doctor, when i started to tell him about my concern, when he realised that my problem was so woman-ish, he sent me to a female doctor..i liked that!

the female doctor however gave me bad examples prior to letting me know my actual condition..she got me scared. but she was oke too.

Clinic 3.

I went to Klinik Kesihatan Batu, Jalan Ipoh KL just now. Yesterday when i called, they said that i need to go there and make an appointment for check up. so today, i went there and they told me that i need to do the UPT again for record purposes..i did it and then i was assigned to a female muslim doctor..i like..like..like..like! hehe she said i am 7 weeks and 4 days today.. my appointment for first pregnancy check up is going to be in 25 Oct 2011. Klinik Kerajaan has improved so much..syukur.! I have a lot to share about my visit to the clinic today..check out next entry!

sick mode

all the sickly stuffs started to come on my 6th weeks of pregnancy. at that point of time, my thought was, most people (org dulu-dulu lah) only find out about their pregnancy after 2 months of conceiving.. how can that be? can't you feel the different? doesn't your body give you early signs? weird..but i learned that all pregnancies are unique in itself even on the same person on different pregnancies. so, maybe they didn't experience early signs.

my week 6 (30 sept-6 Oct) :

i often feel so weak. seriously weak. threwing up so often. light headed. sleepy. but i only experience all this either early in the morning (after azan subuh before going to work) and the most after 6pm everyday. most of the time it prolonged until 3-4 hours.

my week 7 (7 Oct-13 Oct) :

throwing up more often,. light headed during office hours..fall flat every evening starting from 6 pm onwards (most of the time, i fell asleep at 8pm until the next morning)..

and an additional sickness = "DIZZY"...the highest level of dizziness..i don't have migraine but i am sure that it is worse than migraine!! imagine, crazy degree of dizziness + crazy degree of weakness, light headed..every night.!

the worst of all is that, i don't feel like eating anything because everytime i eat, i throw up everything that i just ate plus with yesterday's left over not-yet-digested-food.. i don't eat, i throw up some more..what is left? only a shrinked stomach..so instead of gaining weight like i thought would happen, i maybe loss some kgs. But it was just my guess, we haven't own any weight scale yet. :)

my big sister said, this is the beauty of pregnancy. i am not (yet) agreeable to that statement, maybe soon i will. because she's a mother, she knows better.

additional feelings:

i watched tv the other night about this girl who had given birth to a child and then she threw the new born downstairs from her 4th floor apartment. of course the new born died and already in heaven. she's not married (OF COURSE)..this led me into thinking how troublesome for a person to went through pregnancy when such pregnancy is unwanted. she must have went through all hardships too. alone and sinful. That is so agonizing. That is why our religion warned us not have sex before marriage. Now she has to face two huge sins, adultery and killing of another human being.! Ya Allah..!

My doa is for every muslim woman to not do the same. amin.!

negative thoughts

the thoughts, they weren't mine.

#1

i went to see a doctor at Az-Zahrah, Bangi the other day because i have few concerns being, firstly i have a constant stomach cramps (same like when u r about to have ur menstrual period) i was worried why do i have that when i won't be having menstrual period for nine months..? secondly i throw up a lot but i can't eat to replace whatever food that should be digested in my stomach, i was expecting ubat tahan muntah or something.

when i started to talk about my first concern (i haven't finish complaining), to my surprise, the doctor jumped to the part where she told me this "kalau bermasalah, itu bermaksud belum rezeki kita, kalau tuhan nak ambil balik, redha kan sahaja sebab walaupun kita boleh tahan, tapi dulu ada kes bila kita thn rupanya kepala baby tak form dgn sempurna, baby tu cacat, patut dah kita biar gugur, tapi bila thn mcm tu lah.macam tulah yg akan jadi kalau kita tak redha dengan ketentuan tuhan"

my reaction was "aik??" "what the????" dear doctor, i haven't event get all my concerns out yet and u are already preparing me for bad news? is that how u were taught back in med school? as if one patient is trying to tell u that he experiences stomach ache, would u tell him "kena lah redha, kalau dah sampai masa tuhan nak tarik nyawa" when he turned out to have ONLY indigestion problem???? isn't it too extreme?

oke, my positive-self replied to the doctor "saya faham apa maksud doktor, tapi saya hanya rasa stomach cramp itu kadang2 je. bukannya ada tumpah darah ke apa"..

and then she replied "itu biasa di waktu awal pregnancy, u have nothing to worry about".. i answered her "ha, this makes sense.."..she smiled.

#2

one of my staff at the office had experienced difficulties in getting a child for about 3 years and few miscarriages before she finally succeeded to get pregnant. now she has a son and a daughter. the news of me getting pregnant spread around and she came to my office and we had almost an hour conversation.

she started with "cik awin kena lah ready, bila tiba2 tumpah darah ke apa".."kadang-kadang mmg susah nak jadi"..and there are a lot of details that i think i should just keep to myself. but all her words seemed like she is telling me that all that will eventually happen to me.

i know she meant well,. just to share her experience or something, but the way she put it to me as if she was sure that i would experience that too. that's not fair, she should have doa for me.! at my condition right now, i can easily get irritated and worried..that is not helping dear..nope.

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maybe they meant well, but the way they put it is so not right. don't stressed out pregnant ladies people. :)

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but other than those two, everybody else was happy for me and only wish for the best. alhamdulillah.

Can i conceive?

In previous entry i wrote that our initial plan was to wait until 1 year (after our wedding) before we start to think about getting pregnant, remember?

but, 6 months later, i have a heart beating inside my womb already.

so what was the factor that made us change our mind from waiting to not to wait?

obviously it was me.! (i was pushy) :) haha.. as a normal lady, i always have these thought "can i get pregnant?" "what if i can't?" "infertility scares the hell out of me"..i know the fact that if i have infertility problems, pregnancy won't happen, doesn't matter if we waited or not, i won't (except with Allah's approval of course)..

plus with the surrounding facts that some of my blood relatives had problems in getting pregnant, it worsen my thoughts and it kinda haunt me.

besides that, we thought our financial were oke (though it may not be enough, but wait? who in this world has ever have enough money anyway??), our emotional were oke. so, why wait? we are left with no reason to wait, except, "suka hati lah nak tunggu lagi ke tak" :)

peer pressure has never bothered me, alhamdulillah. some people do compete with their peers..for all i care, u can compete, if u win, they won't help u feed ur child, they won't be the ones who are going to go through sleepless night..boo hoo.!

so, we made our decision because we thought we are ready for it. insyaallah, we are. :)

p/s and yes, the answer that i was looking for is "yes, i can conceive."

17-19 September 2011

By these dates, most people have already learnt the news. :)

I didn't feel many of the "sickly" symptoms (yet).. except the killer symptom that i was having, soreness..(u know what sore the most right? (if u don't google it please) yupp, those!) can't even touch them, no slight movement was allowed!...nooooo!! it continued until today..:(

other symptoms? none.! i was glad..until the 19th.

i took an emergency leave. i can't get up of bed. like seriously can't..i was super duper exhausted like nobody's business. i was sleepy at the highest level of sleepiness and all of my body was aching.

suddenly i remembered my thoughts when i was not yet married, few of my friends who were pregnant back then, complaint that they were weak, everywhere (on the body) was hurtful..bla..bla..bla..my thoughts were, if it was really bad, people won't dare to get pregnant so often. so i was sure that it was not that bad that most people were only spoilt, and wanted attention that's all.

now that i have experienced it myself, let me tell u, that they weren't kidding. seriously! please hear me people, everybody including all of the virgins!...those pregnant ladies who always complaint this and that, they weren't kidding! help them, support them, listen to them and believe them PLEASEEEEE!!

16 September 2011

I learnt that i was pregnant on the Thursday, 15th, on the 16th (friday-public holiday-malaysia day) i held a makan-makan (it was hari raya still) at my rented house due to few requests from close friends. Since the event was planned wayyyy before the news of pregnancy was known to us, we had to proceed anyway. Wan has been very dear to me. He was the no. 1 helper that was always available when i needed favours.

After the event was over, (the last guests left at approximately 9.30pm) i was already FLAT. but my beautiful-little-tiny-cutie-pie nephew was warded at az-zahrah bangi due to his unhealed throat. he is only 2! so i had to manned-up and we went to visit him. he was oke, alhamdulillah and was asleep.

at 11pm we were already in bed and we were so thankful that the day after was only Saturday!